this is what i'm feeling today

i don't want to be an emperor.
-charlie chaplin, from a speech entitled "the great dictator"

did you know that
if you switch the first two letters
around in
Wu Tang
you get
Tu Wang,
which is almost French for
"Your Wang."

"I am going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual. Call it Eternity."

-Jerzy Kosinski, suicide note

let's strip away all the bullshit and fuck like human beings

you must realize, cher ami, that i only say these things and i only make these accusations because i see them in myself. i see your infirmities, your lies, however honorable they may be, because i know them in my own mind and in my own life.

all the same, i think it's rude. and presumptuous as hell.

maybe so. but i realize the duplicity of human beings and you are my friend and i want you to realize it, too, and revel in its glorious decadence.

you're an asshole. that is so so so absolutely pretentious.

there you go, now you're getting the hang of it.

tangential

i'm listening to the arcade fire's new album, the suburbs, right now. in less than a week, i will be in attendance at lollapalooza where i will wait for hours in the grueling sun amidst grubby yuppies posing as hippies and hipsters just to see a compromised set from the band. i will probably enjoy myself. still, in the back of my mind, i can't help but think: is anyone else tired of indie rock?

every week it seems like the internet is trying to push some new young hirsute band from canada onto me. sensitive bearded men in flannel and cute girls with tight pants and striking haircuts. the music is always bland. the lyrics, always the same--ten cent words and ten cent concepts masking a lack of depth.

i want something new. something ridiculous and abrasive. something my parents don't understand. something they might, gasp, find offensive. everything i hear fails to impress me (not that it's anyone's job to do so), but, damn, looking around--hollywood remakes, sequels, exhausted tropes, indie culture--it all seems kind of static.

maybe i should do something about it. but what?
where do we go from here?
i get the feeling something's on the horizon, something mind-blowing. for now, i guess, i'll just have to wait.